To Love is to be Vulnerable

time to LOVE and a time to HATE

Ecc 3: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.

There is a time to love and a time to hate.
Truly letting someone in entirely and enduring their desire to love you, knowing they will love so imperfectly, is really very difficult. God calls us to love the person, and hate the difficulty.

time to be SILENT and a time to SPEAK

Ecc 3: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.

There is a time to be silent and a time to speak.










Sometimes I feel like remaining quiet is easier for me. My fear is that I'll spend my time managing and apologizing for the words that come out. My fear is that when my mouth opens all the focus will be in my own inadequancies and failings. So I wish to choose my words carefully...

a time to TEAR and a time to MEND

Ecc 3: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.

There is a time to tear

and a time to mend.

Putting things back together are never easy; thats why mending is such a sacred act...

time to HOLD ON and a time to LET GO

Ecc 3: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.

There is a time to hold on and a time to let go.
Sometimes holding on is about believing, and enduring. A few things are worth holding on to no matter what is required- a dream, a relationship, faith. The hard part is, sometimes you can't see, or touch, or feel the dream, or the person, or God, and you have to believe anyway.
There are some things that happen in life that are difficult. And, as if you were setting a boat out to sea, you have to take those things and let them go, let them float out and away. And only God can help us do that.

If your like me, the most difficult thing to figure out, is when and what. When should I hold on, and when should I let go. What should I hold on to, and what should I let go of.
I do know that the thing I should hold on to most, is the fact that God will always make everything beautiful in its time. And I can let go of everything that makes me believe otherwise.

Book to consider reading: Holding on and Letting Go, by Chris Leonard.

time to SEARCH and a time to QUIT SEARCHING

Ecc 3: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.

There is a time to search and a time to quit searching.
In September I realized that I was spending large amounts of time on a search for something-- love, worth, affirmation, acceptance-- only to discover that I'd been searching in all the wrong places. My own efforts left me circling, looking for life on my own terms, when what I really needed to do was quit searching for a loophole or an exception or my own way.
Sometimes we look to another person to provide things they cannot ultimately provide for us-- validation of our worth or identity. But if we would just quit searching for the things that satisfy us on earth and truly search and seek out the only one who provide everything for us, our treasures will be stored in heaven. For eternity. So much more worth in that.

time to EMBRACE and a time to TURN AWAY

Ecc 3: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven.

There is a time to embrace and a time to turn away.
I often wonder where God is, what He is up to, how He's moving, and when His plan will unfold.
The time is now to:
Embracing His plans.
Turn away from mine.
Life is unfolding. My eyes just need to adjust to see that the plans He has for me are greater.

I Always Will

This woman is awesome, and I really just love the lyrics to this song.
It was originally done by Joy Williams with different lyrics the song
is called Poison and Wine.
I like this version much better.
I just love you, and I always will, Lord.

Love Hurts Sometimes

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”– Mother Teresa
I’m not really a fan of the idea that love hurts. Who is?
But if you and I are two broken, imperfect people trying to love each other, then there is bound to be hurt. You might even be able to say that there is no real love without hurt, because to love means to be vulnerable and open to hurt. And because I’m really a mess, and don’t have it all together… when someone is vulnerable, I’ll probably end up doing something hurtful. Eventually..
Wish it weren’t true, but it is.

So why do we keep loving?
Well, because we’re made to...maybe. Because we’re desperate for it... maybe. Because we think we should...maybe. Because it’s worth it. yah, I’m pretty sure it’s worth it.
We love through hurt and unfaithfulness and tears because of 1 John and 1 Corinthians 13…
we LOVE because He first LOVED us. He loves with the only perfect kind of love. An unfailing love. A love we will never be able to express.

That’s what I’ve been thinking about lately.

How Many Kings

How many Gods have poured out their hearts,
To romance a world that has torn all apart?

If this isn't love in its truest form, then I don't know what is.