Friday, April 29, 2011

I Will Wait For You

So it seemed, that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me..
So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him
him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF
So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was ME who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”..
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t,
I was gonna make him ‘The One’..
You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!
So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..
But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me
Arties so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,
Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
TO transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!
So now I fully understand,
Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I NEED to wait… for You.
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning was the Word
And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You.. ♥
You were already praying for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will wait for you.
I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention
And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He is ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!
NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!♫
Who flirts with the ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’
NO more.
I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you

No one will even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get weighted down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is NOT subject to time,
But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…
So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son..
I would gain energy simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥
And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.
But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit…
I desire Your will above mine,
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business
Oh, I will always be Yours!
And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…
More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ♥

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Beautiful Things Out of Dust

All this pain,
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way.
I wonder if my life could really change at all.
All this earth,
Could all that is lost ever be found?
Could a garden come up from this ground at all?
You make beautiful things.
You make beautiful things out of the dust.
You make beautiful things out of us.
All around,
Hope is springing up from this old ground.
Out of chaos, life is being found in You.

He makes beauiful things.
He makes beauiful things out of us.
Even when our lives are full of ugly dirt.
He makes us new.
He allows our dirt to seep through His hands,
Turning it into rich soil,
Full of life.
If He can make beauiful things out of dust,
He can make beautiful things out us.

Isaiah 65:17-19
"Pay close attention now: I'm creating new heavens and a new earth. All the earlier troubles, chaos, and pain are things of the past, to be forgotten. look ahead with joy. Anticipate what I'm creating.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Sunday, February 13, 2011

The Creed to Live by

There are 613 Old Testament Laws.
10 Commandments from the Lord God.

Of all the laws and commandments, which is the most important?

The most important one, Jesus said, is this:
‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ AND ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’
There is no commandment greater than these.

What is a creed?
A creed is a statement of belief; usually religious belief or faith, often recited as part of a religious service.

There is one most important commandment. one most important statement. one most important creed to live by...
LOVE the Lord your God with your heart, soul, mind, and strength and LOVE your neighbor as yourself.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Finding Comfort

Life is a thing of unspeakable times of comfort. It doesnt begin in comfort, it begins in dismay. Comfort is one thing you cannot get, by looking for it. If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end. But if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth. And its no use at all trying to go on to that comfort without first going through the dismay..
Be encouraged as am I, that times of dismay and searching for truth will lead you to that time of unspeakable and unshakable comfort.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Speechless Sunday

Advertures more then always begin by getting some-what lost...

Luckly there are those people along the side of the road (literally) who point you in the right direction.

Today my best friend and I went looking for Mt. Helix. After circling the base of the mountain near decorative houses dressed in gold; a kind lady walking down the road clothed for gardening and wearing a large flaccid hat, told us how to get to the top.

A 35 foot cross stands at the peak, near a natural rock formed Amphitheater, which over looks a beautiful 360 degree view of the surrounding cities. A peaceful place to have a picnic, in which we did, after finding a heart shaped cactus and figuring out what high-way was what. As we ate our lun-din (lunch/dinner) on a picnic table tucked away in the trees; some near-by children were digging up the local earth worms. Memories of my childhood came flooding back.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Sea Port

Something New:

Sea Port Village. Interesting place full of shops right along the coast of San Diego. My favorite store was a cute little coffee/book shop. My best friend and I sat upstairs and read Dr. Seuss books and sipped down an iced chai mocha. We walked into a few other mysteriously odd collectible shops, watched a man swallow a sword, and then found our way to the water, where we watched the sun set in the clear blue sky and the clam ocean beneath. Beautiful scene for photos.

Sights to See

Something New:

Today I went to Cabrillo National Monument and the Old Point Loma Light House.

It was beautiful. The air was warm yet a breeze calmed the suns rays when it brushed against my skin. I ate a packed lunch on a rock formed wall with my best friend, over looking a vast and deep ocean. Saw history and experienced the present as each wave formed and crashed along the coast. It was wonderful to be so high up, looking out at the water and San Diego. The sky was so clear.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Faith and Love

I realized there are many things around my room that say "faith" and "love".
Here are a few I took pictures of:

Creativity Flowing

This week has seemed to be extra long. Partly because now as school has started again and I don't have to go any longer, I'm left at home to find things to do.
As I've been alone, my creativity juices have some what been flowing...

I've made two rings, a bracelet, and took some pictures.

Its been fun, mainly because I have someone in mind of who I'm making these things for.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Growing Brains

Something New:

Did you know that your brain is continuously growing from when you are in the womb until you are 26?

interesting fact. In three years my brain will stop growing...

Learned something new today :)


I'm reading the book "A Million Miles in a Thousand Years"
Super good book by the way. I recommend reading it, if you get the chance.
Right now Don is talking about story.
What story is and how to make a good story.

Basically what he comes to is that "a story is a character who wants something and overcomes conflict to get it."
But it has to be a real conflict.
If the story is going to be good, a character is going to have to face some stuff they don't want to face...

As I was reading last night I couldn't help but think about how God has given each one of us a story.
Our challenge is to make our story good.
Make our story worth reading.

In order for this to happen, in order to have a good story,
there must be conflict. There must be obstacles to face and overcome.
"And once you know what it takes to live a better story, you don't have a choice. Not living a better story would be like deciding to die. Deciding to walk around numb until you die. And its not natural to want to die".

Don feels like God wrote us specifically into the story and possibly said "enjoy your place in my story. The beauty of it means you matter, and you can create within it even as I have created you."

Let us not take this story for granted.

Monday, January 3, 2011


Something new:

When someone has a secret, it is unknown to you.
But it becomes something learned when they share with you what that secret entails.

My best friend and I shared secrets tonight...
I learned something new about her.

She is fascinating.

Sunday, January 2, 2011


Something New:
Today I tried shrimp for the first time.

most definitely will eat more, whenever I am presented with it.

new things are fun.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Coffee Beans

Something New:
Today I bought, chocolate covered coffee beans.

I dislike coffee.
but chocolate, covered, coffee beans....

they aren't half bad!

trying to aquire my coffee taste.
We'll see...

Something New, Year.

with this new year...

I'm choosing to try something or learn something new everyday.

take risks.

adventure out.

eat new food.

see new sites.

meet new people.

something new.